It's been a while since I created this blog page. I posted something, but ended up deleting it. But, after seeing a blog option on the Weight Watchers site, I thought I'd attempt this stint again.
I thought about the name of my blog, "Faithing It" and have thought about changing it. I remember struggling so hard to hang on and claiming that for a while. But there had been a period, a long period that I completely let go. It was a period of dark and utter faithlessness. There's been a lot going on the past month or so and especially in the past week, I've been able to believe again... to really believe again. As I'm writing this, it's hard to hold it together as it's so painful, so I'll probably share more about this later. The rest of this blog, I've already pretty much composed from the Weight Watchers community page.
I started Weight Watchers 5 days ago (Thursday). I figured I would at least try this again as I did this several years ago through at workplace program. I lost 25lbs slowly, but the habits I formed kept it off, even after I stopped that program. I had also tried this in my late teens, but if I remember correctly, it didn't really go past the first day.
When at the first meeting during the Power Start, I was asked why I was there. I broke down crying as she was about to come to me. I had just been diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes.
I guess if I had a choice, I'd rather have my feet cut off, but I have always had a fear of going blind. Both are common consequences for those with diabetes and my grandmother who had it did go blind. When I was a teenager, I had been smoking pot obviously laced with something and while at the mall, went blind for a lengthy period of time. We walked around the mall as it eventually wore off. I got my sight back, but that experience made me extremely grateful for my sight and also ensued the major fear of going blind. This was pretty much the 2x4 I needed to manage food and get myself under control. I'm glad the tool of Weight Watchers is available to me.
This week, I haven't faltered from the goal I set, although, I only set one obtainable goal and that was just to track everything I ate, even if I fall off the plan. But, amazingly, I have stayed well within my target points and have not used any of the extra points or extra activity points I earned.
This past week, I started walking just 30 mins, albeit very slow and have continued that much, if not more every day. I even went into the fitness center that we have at work that I have not entered at all since I've been back in May last year!
I'm looking forward to getting better as I have never had control of what I ate or how I ate. Honestly, I don't know how or what to eat and I don't really like most of what is out there, at least what is healthy. So, this will be an adventure for sure.
I also did something else today that I had been wanting to do for years. Decades it seems! I registered to participate in the Capitol 10K in April. The day before my birthday. I'll be walking the majority of it, but I'm so excited. Something to look forward to.
